Mister Sandman

Mr. Sandman, bring me a dream

Make him the cutest that I've ever seen

Give him the word that I'm not a rover

Then tell him that his lonesome nights are over.

This is supposed to be funny when Karen Walker did it, but now I am all lonely again, haha~ sigh~ :S

Anyway, it's been a while, I am still here, just lazy and no time to update (lazyness takes heaps of it) Suddenly I am not sure what do I want really, it's all confused and undecided.

Accustomed To Your Face

I was so really independent and content before we met, 

Surely i could always be that way again and yet 

I've grown accustomed to his looks, 

Accustomed to his voice, 

Accustomed to his face. 

The life that I had before, I could do it forever. But somehow the quiet desire is brewing inside, and I know, I could not be content anymore. Still, for now, when another face has not been found to replace you, I think I just grow accustomed to your face for a while, wouldn't hurt ya much right? :)

Love Is Hard

I see lovers in the streets walking,

without a care.

They wear it out loud

like there's something in the air

Oooooh, well I don't care

I didn't think this song is good until recently when I started to listen carefully, especially the beginning of the guitars. It reminds me of Details In The Fabric, but this one is as good too. It is not so much about the lyrics, but the music really calms me.

Well, I really can't say no to the lyrics, right? I mean, I have to agree. Love is a luxury when you have none, and a pain in the arse when yours become cheesy. People are just shitty when it comes to love, several different kinds of perspective, and it all wind down to a single purpose - self. Love is hard when you deal with people with such a high self esteem, and love is definitely hard when you have so much love to be given out but all around you are high self esteem chauvinists.

Life Goes On

kaze wa taezu ugoite

bokura no senaka wo osuyo

toki ga nagaretemo You're my sweetheart

You're my sweetheart

matataku hoshi no mukou

yume mita mirai egakou

dakara sono toki wa issho ni iyou yo

Life goes on.

{The wind never stops and pushes us forward

Even as time goes by, you’re my sweetheart

We’ll make the future we dreamed of come true beyond the shining stars

That’s why we should be together when it happens

Life goes on.}

Who wouldn't be happy while having a cake?

I guess when I was searching for my piece, there is also life which goes on in auto-pilot. Sweet, sour, bitter, spicy, different kind of tastes pass through my life and I am still here. Perhaps like London said, God has put us on this situation and test our belief, we just have to face it with gratitude and knowing a sunny side is always waiting after a cloudy storm.

And for now, I have a craving for dessert, yum~ ^^

Fine Line

There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend,

There's a fine, fine line between reality and pretend,

I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime,

But there's a fine, fine line between love

And a waste of your time.

There's a fine, fine line between together and not

And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.

You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime...

I guess we just have to have our boundaries and try to make things clear so that we don't mix it up like a cocktail drink: you don't know what is in it but it might not taste as good as you think.

I think I should learn to be modest, to be more control in emotion and mentally, I should be more sane and rational.

Chasing Pavements

should i give up

or should i just keep chasing pavements

even if it leads no where,

or would it be a waste

even if i knew my place should i leave it there.

Really, should I give up, or should I keep on chasing pavements? I think the latter is a better chance for a happier life, even though I don't know if there is an end to it, or how many obstacles would I face, then again, don't every life to be that way?

Keeyit, don't give up you too ya ;)

btw, this guy's cover is so much better than Adele's studio version, oops~

Undiscovered

You think that I wanna run and hide 

I'll keep it all locked up inside

I just want you to find me

I'm not lost, I'm not lost, Just undiscovered

Maybe he's just around the corner of my eyes. 

Or maybe there is no he in the first place.

Today Keeyit's forwarded me an article which I have read sometime ago. It is generally advising us to appreciate who we are with now than longing for the perfect one in our mind. So it is a Mr Right-now than Mr Right philosophy. I do not detest on this theory as I don't believe there is only 1 person right for you in this world. Relationship is an effort to keep, not by destiny, you just need to work on it hard enough to harvest later.

But the problem is, hm... I don't even have a Mr Right-now.... :S

I Am Pathetic Enough

When I was young,

O, in the hallways, the music played.

I was so sad. I thought,

'This is what love must be like

when I grow older or meet someone older.'

I'm pathetic enough,

but you sleep in my bed, nonetheless.

My forehead is now 1/3 of my face. >_<

SST said we are old enough to take care of our teeth, and the dentist said my gum is no longer healthy and there were a lot of blood during today's teeth-house-keeping.

My knees hurt whenever I walk down a stair, I blame it on the constant running. But it could also because my tendon is no longer as flexible.

I am scared I tell you. That's the truth

If Love (Ever That Easy)

如果愛沒有那麼煩　
我不會食不下晚飯　
也不會多麼的墮落　
如果你說你愛我
如果愛可以更簡單　
我也不會有這麼亂　
整個世界在轉　
你或許可以說你愛我嗎？

Ever since I broke up with BB Alvin, we have been getting along much better than before. (or at least so as I thought we did which is sort of in my way of a relationship) Not only we have not been fighting and angry on each other, but I actually able to share a lot more things about my life with him and he is able to be a listener.

Really, if love is really that easy, things would have gone a lot more swell.

Tikiville

And I think

everybody here is

just a little tipsy

but it's quite alright

Maybe it's not them, but it's just me, getting drunk by the tons of workload and the fact that I am actually thinking that staying late to work for my company is a good thing. >_< It is crazy, and the more crazy thing is I actually thought of staying if I ever get another offer by another company due to my boss is treating me good. >_<

I must be tipsy or I am being brain washed! :S

The Meeting

我不敢相信我在這裡

我終於要遇見你

雖然你不認識我的臉

但是真愛注定會相見

The truth is I have no feeling at all for today's meeting after he ruins himself to doom as Englye and I knew the real mccoy. Suddenly everything has gone from okay to bad (really really bad). I don't know why would someone having to lie for a desperation of love, it is funny to us and it is very sad for him. And the scary thing is, I don't know how many others he has been keeping in touch at the same time, doing what he is doing on both of us. Don't you think this is just pathetic, to lie on himself in order to beg for love?

I really feel sorry for him, foolish dick.

Empty City

我不要愛的空城　請給我你的天真

我不要情色掌紋　為它做無謂的犧牲

我不要愛的空城　抹去流星的陪襯

在歲月漸老的國度　只看你輪廓寫真

When the day comes to an end, all I find myself with is just really myself. I think I didn't have the time to think much about it, but when an opportunity slips away in a simple answer, the heart did a twitch and never been the same again.

Once again, it is an empty seat inside.

Sun After The Rain

愛在夏天過完之後鎖在秋天
捱過冬天之後的我好了一些
嘿 雨後的天上 彩虹出現 襯出一片藍天

Just now I bumped into a cute guy whom looked at me back for a straight 5 seconds. Even though that's that, well, but I felt happy that I still got it. :P And 3 phone calls made up my day, so thank you BB Alvin, thank you mimimao and thank you small pig~

Faith

啊 我期待 隨時都有做個新人的勇氣
啊 我明白 明天的太陽 平均照在每個人身上

隨著想念翅膀 飛越了障礙 讓愛變成信仰
無論在何方 也有說出愛的力量

Yesterday I finished the ba gua he gave me, also signified that there is no more relations between us. I think I am going to be fine very soon, eventhough this weekend is Valentine's day. Perhaps all I need is a little bit more faith....

Spoiled

I kinda thought that I'd be better off by myself I've never been so wrong before You made it impossible for me to ever Love somebody else And now I don't know what I left you for See I thought that I could replace you He can't love me the way you do 'Till now I never knew

Maybe I really got spoiled by BB Alvin, he loved me too much, so I treat people for granted. I think I have to really slap myself to get sober every 5 mins~ T_T

1234567

為什麼　我 一個字都還沒說

明明是該表態時候

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愛上你了　對不起

慢幾拍　麻煩你稍候

愛我　別放過我

我一定會　為你　不保留

想我　沒時間寂寞

Khalil Fong is simply fantastic. This is just so sweet, when will a guy tell me that. I put this song in my ringtone for someone, but today I have removed it, coz it won't happen anymore, I guess.

Do I Need It

找個人來愛我 我害怕孤獨

這樣枯坐到睡去 我感到很冷 感覺很累

找個人來愛我 讓我永遠堅強

我站在這裡 停止奔跑 沒有感覺

走在匆忙的城市 努力奮鬥的日子

感覺自己並不屬於這裡

只屬於你屬於彼此

The song is good though, and the new album from her isn't that bad either. Very typical Fish Leong style. I'm listening it together with Li Hom's new album, and it seems she is nicer. Yet too hard to tell.

Anyway, I don't really think I need someone to love, but it would be luxurious to have someone to think of, to know that he is thinking of me too. Yet, this is not essential, and sometimes it goes bad and has too many side effects. So I really don't know. Do you?

Fearless

Taylor Swift is one name that I avoid to touch, because she is Country, and I always thought Country music is kinda "cookoo".

But she has been in the charts for too long not to get my notice, so I downloaded, and "ka-ching" she has become one of my new favourite country singer already~! Her music is like Miley Cyrus in country version, or the early Britney Spears in country version, or even Carrie Underwood in non-idol-famed version.

Her voice was clear, as keeyit put it, and she sings all the puppy love that got me into the state of 17 or 18 again. It was the love so pure so beautiful that no one dares to stain it. I love that feeling, although I didn't really have a chance to taste it, but I could imagine it would be like her songs.

Favourite is Hey Stephen, too sweet for a song, too sweet if there is a guy made me think this way. :)

Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel

Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so

Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you

Can't help it if there's no one else

I can't help myself

100 Different Lifestyle

整個世界 停止 不轉動 很寂寞
走在海邊 數著 螢火蟲 好困惑
想要的生活怎麼有一百種
不想掉進這深深 漩渦

整個海洋 擺動 柔軟地 舉起我
孤獨給我 自由 猶豫得 好感動
想要的生活怎麼有一百種
該怎麼走 誰來告訴我 wow

每當我背對星空
抱著地球
發現自己其實脆弱 不敢說
當我背對星空
孤獨摸索
愛情漸漸萎縮 我猜不透
無邊的宇宙 哪裡有我要的生活

This is almost nearly my now feeling. It was incredible lonely when I get back to the island, and I now realize how it felt again, still it was my choice but I think I could make it through, perhaps just made a couple more mistakes in life and I would be contend of myself.

If you asked me I felt jealous I would say yes.
If you asked me I felt regret I would say no.
It's true.